If only I had the resources, the strength, and the stability to raise another child, I would have kept you. I’m sorry.
August 23, 2025, I found out I was pregnant again. The thing is, I had just recently given birth to a very healthy baby girl who is now 9 months old. I never regret having her—in fact, she is my only purpose. But pregnancy took so much out of me. I never imagined it would be so hard, and I promised myself I couldn’t go through it again.
In the first few months after giving birth, I isolated myself. I stopped showing up for people and even for myself. The pain, the mood swings, and everything in between were overwhelming. Eventually, I started attending counseling sessions. I began opening up to my friends again. Slowly, I was getting back on track—until it happened again.
The truth is, I cannot afford to have another baby right now. I don’t have enough support around me to help raise them. I don’t have the financial means to give them the kind of life they deserve. I want my children to have the best possible childhood, not one where I constantly struggle to provide. On top of that, I can’t afford to stop working. I have no backup plan—because I am my family’s backup plan.
Thankfully, I came across someone who told me about Project 486. I was already very decided before I reached out to them. When I sent them an email, they responded right away. There were no judgments, no unnecessary personal questions—just genuine support. They provided everything I needed to know, including reliable sites for articles and studies about medical abortion. They explained which medicines are used and even how to identify whether the drugs are fake. Whether you get the medication from them or elsewhere, they make sure you have all the information you need.
The messages were overwhelming at first—it was a lot to take in. But I learned that you just have to read carefully, and read more than once if needed.
On Days 1 and 2, I didn’t feel much.
Day 3 was the hardest. You have to lie down for 8 straight hours without turning to your side, sitting, standing, or walking. You’re not allowed to eat or drink. The cramps begin, but they’re still manageable.
After the 8 hours, Dr. Jj finally gave me the go signal to go to the bathroom. The moment I stood up, I felt something coming out of me. I was bleeding. Within minutes, my angel came out. Dr. Jj confirmed that the procedure was successful—I was no longer pregnant.
That’s when the emotions hit me. I cried—hard. I sat on the bathroom floor for a long time before I could get up. I hadn’t planned on naming the baby, but I did. I named her Faith. If only I had the resources, the strength, and the stability to raise another child, I would have kept you. I’m sorry.
It’s been a couple of days since the procedure. I don’t feel pain anymore, just menstrual-like cramps and some bleeding, which is normal. I was even able to return to work the very next day.
To Dr. Jj and Project 486—thank you for giving us a safe way to get it. Thank you for your sincerity, compassion, and support. You didn’t just provide the medicine—you gave me courage, clarity, and peace of mind during one of the hardest moments of my life. Because of you, I felt seen, understood, and guided every step of the way.
And to anyone reading this: I know it can be scary, but Project 486 will guide and educate you. Just make sure you follow their instructions carefully, and you will be safe. You don’t have to go through this journey alone—having the right information and support makes all the difference. Trust the process, trust yourself, and remember that choosing what’s best for you and your family does not make you any less of a mother, a woman, or a person.