I am a fresh grad and I just got hired to work when I found out that I was pregnant. I was scared. Before taking the pregnancy test, I already had a feeling that I was pregnant and so the first thing that I thought of was project486. I found out about this page because long time ago when I had a pregnancy scare, I started looking for abortion clinics in Cebu. I was scrolling through this clinic’s reviews to make sure that the place is legit and that was where I found a comment left by a woman who warned us that the place was a scam, and that if we want help we should go to project486.com. I immediately went to the site and read the stories that these women shared. Sa sigi nako ug basa sa mga story, adto ko naka conclude na dili sila scammer. When I took the pt, and it turned out positive, I told my partner about it. He wanted to keep it but I didn’t. I wasn’t ready for motherhood. I just turned 23. I have lot of plans for my life and having a child is not part of it as of now. I wanted to be financially stable before having a child.

I immediately sent them an email and I waited patiently for a reply. They then asked for details and assigned me to a consultant. Later that night I had the consultation. Sir John explained the medicines that will be used and what they’re for. He made sure that I knew where this medicines were from, he even told me about its origin. He really took his time explaining what I need to know and because of that I was a 100% sure that they are not scammers. After the call, Sir John sent me a message telling me that if I have the slightest doubt, I should not continue. I was indeed having doubts. I cried when I read that message. It reminded me of my mom. She had me when she was still in college. As punishment, gipa layas siya and my mom never got her degree because she stopped her education and got herself a job so she could raise me on her own. My father never married her. He had the nerve to tell my mom that he wasn’t ready even when he was the one who told my mom he wanted a child. My mom was shamed for years for having me because she had a child out of wedlock. When I was 10, my relatives would tell me that I will end up just like my mom. That I will have a child too soon and that I will never be successful. My Mom always told me “ipalapos lang na sa pikas dunggan gud” but it never did lapos to my dunggan, it stayed with me. My mom always told me that she wanted to be a secretary and I always feel guilty because until now I still think that I am the reason why she wasn’t able to chase her dreams. And so I decided to proceed.

The transaction was smooth and I received the parcel within a week.

On my first day, I was having a hard time fasting because I have a big appetite. I was not used to eating in small portions but I endured it.

 

On the second day, I woke up feeling nauseous and sleepy. Other than that, I was fine. I was also bleeding a little. Then the third day came. After work, I rushed to the pharmacy to buy the things that I needed for the procedure. I took a long walk home. I was nervous because I had to do it all alone. When I arrived home, I did all the chores and ate a little. Then I changed into my comfy clothes and arranged the pillows on my bed to get ready for the pillow manuever. I kept on re-reading the instructions that Sir John gave me to make sure that I’m doing everything right. At 8pm I did the vaginal insertion while in pillow manuever. I was expecting a very painful process but it actually wasn’t. To me, it just felt like my normal menstruation. I couldn’t sleep so I just binged watch my fav kdrama. I was setting up alarms for the buccal miso and for when I have to swallow it. After I was done doing those things, I updated sir John. 4am came and Sir John told me na I can get up, walk, and take pictures of the POC. The moment I stood up, I felt everything come out of me. Like mura siya ug nayabo sa diaper. Mura ko ug nalibang pero sa V gikan. So mao to nag hinay² ko ug lakaw sa cr dayun gi hubo ang diaper. After searching the diaper I found a flesh like clump so I washed it carefully and laid it on the tissue. I got emotional as I was looking at it. I felt guilty.

I sent Sir John the documentation, I waited for his confirmation and then he sent me the post-op reminders. I washed my v, changed into a matenity pad, and went back to bed. I slept till 8 am. When I woke up, I carried the POC with me and buried it by the bombil tree in our front yard and promised myself that this will be the first and last abortion and that this should serve as a lesson to me and my partner.

I would like to thank the whole team of project486 for helping me. If it weren’t for all of you, I don’t know what has become of me. Thank you so so so much for helping me. Than you Sir John for helping me with this procedure and for the comforting words. I wish you all good health.

-Q