June 8, 2018

Aica, 27, IT specialist

Taguig City, Philippines

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I am Aica, 27yrs old. I have 2 kids and living with partner.
We both decided we do no’t want another baby for now. He’s business just started to flourish and I just got a new job that will start my career in IT. Aside from that I have hypothyroidism and OB warned me n manipis n ang matres ko and I should not get pregnant again until I am 30. It’s risky to carry the child.
I came across this blog where I learn project 486.
They responded very fast and scheduled my consultation with sir John.
we sent the payment on 5/30 and we received the parcel 5/31.

May 31 – started the low folate diet and fasting and then I take the Mife 11:59PM and went to sleep.
June 1 – low folate diet, just like a normal day. i don’t feel anything
June 2 – Big Day
12mn. start of fasting
5AM I prepared myself, took a bath
6AM – start of the vaginal miso, after the insertion I went to sleep and wake up at 10 AM
10AM- start of buccal miso, no cramps, except for the the lower back pain due to my position, bawal gumalaw or tumagilid.
12noon- started to feel cramps, nag hot complress na ko to ease the pain.
2PM – bafore I take the 2nd buccal Miso, tumayo ako para magCR, then I felt a sudden gush.
Then on the floor a big clot. I know that moment na yun n sia.
I tried to pick it up so I can wash it with water. pero bago ko pa sai mahawakan my emotions suddenly burst. I cried. and nsabi ko n lang sa asawa ko “hindi ko kaya” at umiyak n ako ng umiyak.naghina n ung ktawan ko.
tinuloy ng partner ko ung documentation habang umiiyak lang ako at nagsimula n din siang umiyak at naririnig ko lang sia nagsasabi na “sorry, anak”
pinilit kong tumayo kahit na hinang hina n ung mga binti ko. humiga ulit ako habang iyak ako ng iyak.. hindi ako makapniwala na tapos na at nagawa ko yun. I never thought na aabot ako sa ganitong desisyon sa buhay ko.
We finished the documentation and natulog n ako. When I woke up, nabasa ko ung txt ni sir John na I’m officially not pregnant anymore.
I am on my way to recovery, 1 week after the procedure. My life is back to normal like nothing happened.
I will forever remember the day. We promised to be careful next time and we should push our selves to be sucessful para hindi masayang ang sakripisyo ng suppose to be 3rd baby namin.

I don’t have regret kasi ito yung sa tingin namin na best para sa pamilya namin. And dahil risky if itutuloy ko ung pregnancy natakot ako n maiwan ko ung dalwang kong anak at ang asawa ko.
Pero may kurot sa puso ko everytime maalala ko araw na yun.

He’ll be forever in our hearts.
He’ll be our gurdian angel.

PS. Practice safe sex.