When I first found out that I was pregnant, I didn’t know what to do or what to think. I was already very scared because I knew it would disappoint my family. I felt sad, cried a lot, and became very stressed because I knew I wasn’t ready yet. Before my partner and I decided to have an abortion, we went through a lot. We argued, and I cried almost every day because it was very hard to think about doing something I didn’t really want. I want to have a child someday, but this was not the right time for me.
My partner and I are still studying, so we are not yet able to take care of a baby. We talked many times before I finally decided to continue with the abortion while it was still early. It took a long time and was very difficult to make the decision. I was scared of what would happen, but I knew I had to be strong. I am very thankful that my partner was always there to help me. For those who are in the same situation as mine, I hope your partner is with you, because going through this alone is very hard.
After that, my partner looked for a page where we could buy the pills. He searched on Facebook and TikTok and found Project 486. We carefully read all the information because buying from the wrong seller can be risky, and we were afraid of fake pills and scammers. When we saw many proofs and stories from people who were helped by Project 486, we decided to email them. Before anything else, Doc JJ helped us understand the entire process, what to prepare, what medicines to take, and how to avoid fake pills and scammers. At that point, I knew that Project 486 was trustworthy.
To avoid scams and fake pills, my partner and I decided to buy from them because we knew it was safe. After we received the pills, we started the process right away. On day 1 and day 2, my partner was not with me because I couldn’t stay long at their place. We decided that I would stay at home with my family during those days because I could still manage to take the pills there. I was able to keep it private, and I didn’t feel much yet during those days. Pumunta na ako sa partner ko ng day 3 kasi mas marami na akong mararamdman non kaya mas mabuting may kasama ako. Kaya we planned to be together on day 3 na. So on day 3 and day 4, I stayed with my partner so he could help and support me. It is important to be with your partner on day 3, because having someone with you during that time really matters. On day 1 and day 2 of taking mife, I didn’t feel much—mostly just tired and sleepy. My body sometimes felt heavy, and emotionally, I was overwhelmed. I cried often because of all the thoughts running through my head. As day 3 got closer, I became more nervous and kept crying because I was scared and because this was something I didn’t really want to do, even though I knew why I had to. Lying down for a long time was exhausting, and I felt very thirsty and hungry, which made everything more difficult.
When something came out, I became scared and nervous, and I couldn’t bring myself to look at it. When we went downstairs, I cried and started shaking because something more came out. At that moment, my partner wasn’t with me because he had to take care of something, so I was alone. While I was cleaning myself, I felt something come out from my V, and I became extremely frightened. I started shaking even more, crying harder, and shouting for my partner because I was terrified and deeply traumatized by what happened.
Now, I am healing and slowly recovering from the experience. I am really thankful for my partner, who supported me and stayed by my side during this difficult time. Although it was very frightening and emotionally heavy, I am focusing on taking care of myself and moving forward. I am very thankful to Project 486 and of course to Doc JJ for helping my partner and me. Whenever I felt something unusual or started to worry, I immediately messaged Doc JJ. Don’t be afraid to reach out to doctors—they are there to guide you, reassure you, and help you get through the process safely. He answered all my questions and always told me to stay calm and that it’s okay to worry about what’s happening. After everything, they still gave me instructions, medicines to take, and reminders to make sure I would heal properly and recover fast. That’s why I am very thankful to Project 486 and Doc JJ.
To any girl going through the same situation as mine, I want you to know that you are not alone. It’s okay to feel scared, stressed, or overwhelmed—these feelings are normal. Make sure you have someone you trust by your side for support, and don’t be afraid to reach out to professionals or reliable organizations for guidance. Take care of yourself, both physically and emotionally, and allow yourself time to heal. Remember, the decision you make is personal, and it’s okay to prioritize your well-being. Trust yourself, be kind to yourself, and know that you are stronger than you think.