Aug 3, 2017
Penny, 28, call center agent
Pasig City, Philippines
let me start this story when i learned i was pregnant.i actually had an idea that i was.i got 2 period in 1 month.the same thing also happened to me when i got pregnant the first time. when i got my 2nd period i panicked but i waited for my next months period.unluckily,it didnt came.still in denial i waited even though its already july and my period should start in june.i cant concentrate anymore at work.so after my shift i bought PT took the test and it was positive.im crying, i cant be.i told my friend about it and she bought me 4 more PT to be sure, but they all tested positive.im not expecting it,not at this time.i dont want to see my mother and sisters disappointing face knowing that im struggling raising my 2 kids.i do have my partner with me.but unfortunately he cant work at this time.i came to this decision thinking about the future of my kids.anong buhay ang ibibigay ko sa kanila kung bubuhayin ko siya ngayon?lagi na nga kaming na shoshort sa budget tapos madadagdagan pa kami.i know its not the baby’s fault.but the baby came at the wrong time.when i came home i cried at my partners arms.i was so stressed out,all i can do is cry.
i researched about abortion when i came home.then i come up to herbal abortion.tried the parsely infusion and insert plus the dong quai capsule and vitamin c but nothing worked.i accidentally emailed project486 thinking that theyre selling the dong quai capsule.they have an automatic reply.at first i didn’t pay attention to it.but as the day goes by and nothing is happening on herbal abortion i know i had to do something.i just finished the dong quai capsule and go for the second option, which is contacting project486.at first i was hesitant because i dont want to use any medicine for abortion.some of my trusted friends knows what im going to do,and thankful din ako sa kanila kasi kahit hindi nila ako naintindihan,hindi naman nila ako hinusgahan.
it took me a while to decide if im going to push through this process,first i talked to sir john over the phone,i felt a little hopeless since sir john just gave me a success rate of 75-85% since i gave birth through cs procedure.he said my cervix might not respond to the meds.but still i want to give it a try,we cant afford to have a new addition to the family right now.it took me 2weeks after we talked to start the procedure, sir john needs to check on me because i’m not communicating with them.doing the procedure is hard, from dieting,fasting and vomiting ang hirap.when it finally came out i wanted to cry.but then its already done.its a relief on my part but guilt came as well.i called “him” third since he was supposed to be our third baby.had you came in a different situation hindi ito ang choice na pipiliin ko.
to sir john and sir alex.thank you for guiding me through this whole process.i was afraid to do it because im thinking of course about my health i was thinking what if something bad happen to me paano na yung dalawang anak ko.but fortunately everthing went smoothly.so thank you sir john and sir alex.thank you kasi may mga katulad niyo na handang magguide sa mga katulad naming ito ang napiling choice.