Hi, I’m Amy.  I have a stable job, I can afford to have a baby, but why did I choose to do this? I am in a very unusual type of relationship with my “partner”. Hindi po ako kabet! 🙂

 

We are not ready because we’re still carrying heavy baggages from our previous relationships, the expectations of the people around us, it’s just so freaking hard. Don’t get us wrong, we also considered keeping our baby but we tried to weight things out and not continuing with this pregnancy weight heavier.

 

We ordered the meds and prepared ourselves. When I took my first pill, it crushed my world. I told myself, there’s no turning back, Amy.  Day 2 passed, took my second pill and here comes day 3. The darkest day of my life. It’s was not easy. The pain, the discomfort and the sadness. It took me sometime to bleed, but when I started bleeding, everything also happened so fast. When I felt like the POC is out, I left the comfort room and turned my back. I just can’t bare seeing it. I’m thankful to my partner because he was with me the entire time.

   

 

But you should know what’s more fucked up. It’s after the procedure.

Up to this day, I am still sulking in sadness, guilt and the “what if’s”. Please think a million times before doing this. But when you decide that you really have to do it, Doc JJ and his team will give their 100% to help you.

I am only sure of one thing. I don’t deserve to have another baby.