When everything was over, we felt a mix of emotions—confusion, sadness, and regret. We weren’t completely relieved. Instead, we felt the weight of what it meant to be parents and questioned our decision. If circumstances had been different, we would have given our child the world and tried to be the best parents we could be.

At first, we were completely lost—our emotions were clashing, and we didn’t know whether to keep the baby or not. As time passed and we thought more deeply about our situation, we eventually decided not to continue with the pregnancy. I (male) began researching safe ways to go through an abortion, and that’s when I came across Project 486 and showed it to my partner. She was skeptical at first because many websites seem to exist only for money, so we decided to send an email to see if it was legitimate.

We were guided thoroughly on the next steps, and eventually we had the chance to speak with Doc JJ. After that conversation, many of our uncertainties disappeared. It became clear to us that their intention was genuinely to help Filipina women make informed decisions about their future. Doc JJ explained everything in detail, especially the importance of the medication. What really stood out to us was that they weren’t trying to sell anything—their main purpose was to educate. They even tried to talk us out of the procedure, saying that if we chose not to go through with it, things might still turn out okay.

Despite that, we were committed to our decision. When we finally chose to get the necessary medication, it was a relief to know we had come to the right place and that someone would be there to guide us when the time came.

The first two days were manageable, though it was difficult seeing my partner unable to eat properly. On the third day, the pain and cramping became intense, and it was hard to watch her go through that. Thankfully, Doc JJ was there to guide us throughout the entire process.
Even after everything, the emotional pain didn’t end. What Doc JJ said about reconsidering the procedure stayed with us. When everything was over, we felt a mix of emotions—confusion, sadness, and regret. We weren’t completely relieved. Instead, we felt the weight of what it meant to be parents and questioned our decision. If circumstances had been different, we would have given our child the world and tried to be the best parents we could be.

Until now, my partner and I still carry guilt, but we try to reassure ourselves that if we are given another chance in the future, we will give our child everything they deserve. To anyone who may come across this message, I hope you take the time to think your decision through carefully, so that you can find peace with whatever choice you make.