August  30, 2017

Kath, 23, Flight attendant trainee

Sta. Mesa, Manila, Philippines

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MY STORY

Hi. My name is Kath. I am 23. I just resigned from my job and I am in my last semester of training for being a Cabin Crew in my dream airline. How will I start my story? Well. Here it goes.

I was drunk. I was drunk because of too many problems. I was stressed because of the training of being a Cabin Crew. It was so hard that I almost quit. My mom doesn’t want me to be a Cabin Crew because it’s too risky daw. (Nerbosya mommy ko) But I went anyway. While doing the 3-month training, my boyfriend broke up with me kase wala na daw ako time sa kanya because of the training. Too many problems so for the first time in my life, I went to a bar with couple of friends. Gays, guys and girls. And honestly, it felt good. Too good that I really got drunk. Then it happened. One of my friends got me pregnant. And yes, that was the first time I had s*x. And that first time got me pregnant by someone who is not even my boyfriend.

At first, I didn’t think na “Ahh baka buntis ako kaya late period ko.” It’s because it always comes as a surprise. Minsan, 1st week or minsan 2nd week of the month. Tsaka sabi ko sa sarili ko, “No way!” First time ko lang nagawa yun tas nabuntis na ko agad? But yes, accidents really happen. August 16 na wala pa din. I can’t accept the probability na baka buntis ako kaya I didn’t take any test. But gosh, Aug 22 na wala pa din. That is the time na I decided to face it. I bought 2 Pregnancy Test and there, 2 lines meaning positive. The second line is quite blurred and unclear so I took the test again and it showed the same result. I googled it hoping that it might be negative but I was wrong. It is still a positive result as long as it shows two lines. That’s according to Mr. Google. Hehe. I cried and I felt fear. Ang dami na agad pumasok sa isip ko. Pano yung pagiging FA ko. 1 month na lang graduate na ko and lilipad na sa iba’t ibang bansa. Masasayang lahat ng hirap at pagod ko. Plus my mom. She would be dissapointed, I know. I blamed myself for everything. For going to a bar, for being drunk and for sleeping with my friend. I didn’t tell him that he got me pregnant. I didn’t want to. I knew that moment that I don’t want to keep the baby because she/he doesn’t deserve a mother like me. I can’t even take care of myself. How would I take care of a child? Buti sana kung boyfriend ko yung nakabuntis sakin.

That day, I didn’t attend my training. Sabi ko may dysmenorrhea ako. Di pwede because that day, swimming and on water precautions ang training. I researched everything on how to take this little angel out of my body. Name it. Vitamin C, Dong Quai Capsule etc. I tried everything but I failed. One week after trying herbal meds, I discovered Project 486. They seemed trustworthy since they have so many successful reflections. So I did contact them.

Aug 24. I emailed them. The next day, they replied. They’re quick as long as you will provide the details they need. Of course, they need to be sure too.

Aug 26. I had a phone call appointment with what they call John. Sir John is so nice that he explained everything without even me asking first. He answered some of my questions and you can hear that he is a pro. He knows what he’s doing. I also like their process. Emailing Sir Alex and texting Sir John at the same time. They use codes to make the conversation easier and faster.

Aug 27. I paid for the meds right away. The next day, they delivered it in my preffered LBC branch. That day was also the first day of my procedure.

Aug 29-Midnight. Took a pill and felt dizzy early in the morning. Fasting was really really hard. I am that kind of person who drinks lots of water so it was really a struggle for me.

Aug 30. I insert two tablets in my V and fasted. That same day, I took 4 tablets bucally. I did almost everything by myself. My cousin was with me but she just assisted me handling me over the things I need. She bought everything. I am really thankful for her. Cramps were painful but you can tolerate it.

At around 2pm of the same day, I really need to pee so I did. And there! Too many blood, blood clots and tissues were in my diaper. Took a picture of this distinguished blood clot and sent it to Project 486 for assessment. I took another photo since it’s not clear daw. Right after that, I drunk 2 Yakult and ate some boiled chicken breast. It really felt bad to be hungry. Haha.

Still, Aug 30-9pm, I was allowed to eat normal food. Yeeesss! But I was still worried because the 2nd blood clot (it maybe the embryo or the placenta) didn’t come out yet. I asked Sir Alex but he told me not to worry about it; that I was doing great. Nagworry lang ako kase sa mga nabasa ko, after 2 hrs, sunod na agad yung next blood clot eh. Hehe.

Still Aug 30- 11:45PM. I decided to go to sleep and just let blood flow in my diaper. I was a bit worried because I thought, I’m not yet done with the procedure. (Still waiting for something to come out) But right after I texted Sir Alex that I would go to sleep, he texted me that the procedure was done and it was a SUCCESS. He told me to take painkillers and antibiotics for the coming days. He gave some reminders about the continous bleeding and to continue updating them about my healing.

Phew! I am not proud of what I did but I learned my lesson indeed. Girls, don’t get too drunk and don’t get too carried away by your problems because it might lead to another problem like unwanted pregnancy. It will cost a life of a little angel. Don’t do things na idadagdag nyo sa listahan ng ‘regrets’ nyo. (Ako kase, pinagsisihan ko na I lost my virginity that cost a life.) And if you ever caught in a situation like this, hope not, but just in case, go to the right people and consultants like Project 486.

I personally thank Project 486 team for not leaving me thru the whole process. Because of you, I can continue my training and in a month, be a Flight Attendant. Maraming Salamat po!