Abortion and Abortion Pills in Leyte

Stopped using contraceptives

Sep. 19, 2016
Jen,20,  Leyte Philippines

How should I begin this…
Well I’ll start when my boyfriend and I found out that I was pregnant.
It was during one of our dates, I have been late for my period for about 13 days that night. I’ve been also having pregnancy symptoms already, like nausea, tenderness of the breasts, often urination,etc. I decided to take the PT there at that resto for we both know we can’t do it at home.

The moment I saw two lines, I didn’t know what to feel. We have stopped using any kind of contraception for months because I was not getting pregnant even without it anyway. I thought I had problems conceiving so we decided to just stop using them kasi wala namang “purpose”.
So, I didn’t really know if I was happy or devastated with the result, but all I know was that I wasn’t ready. We weren’t ready. At all.

Home abortion remedies fail

The next day, we immediately looked for ways on how to induce abortion at home. We found a blog that has complete instructions on how to use herbal medicine so at first we tried that, but it didn’t seem to be working. Thankfully, through emails, the person who wrote that blog suggested a plan B if in case plan A (herbal) didn’t work. That is where I found out about PROJECT 486.
Before contacting them, I wanted to know how far I am with the pregnancy already so I had an ultrasound, and of course I had to act just like a normal person expecting a baby.
So, I saw my baby. May heartbeat na sya. I had to smile when the doctor showed it to me.
I was already 6 weeks and 4 days pregnant that time, so “maybe” that’s why the herbs did not work on me anymore.

Before I go on, just a bit of advice to some, if you’re really sure that you’re pregnant and you’re a hundred percent sure that you want to have an abortion, do not have an ultrasound. It might make you feel connected with the fetus, at least that was what happened to me. I actually cried when I got home from the clinic, but of course I know I really had to terminate the pregnancy.

Stick with the best that science can offer – medical abortion

So after my “moment of weakness”, my boyfriend and I emailed the details that Sir Alex needed. Their instructions were very clear from the beginning, you just really have to follow every step correctly.
Sir John and Sir Alex have guided me throughout the whole process from day 1. Though the process may seem a little difficult and intimidating, if you’re really decided on what you will do, you have to gather the courage to just go with it.

The first two days were the easiest, I just had to follow a low folate diet. On the sencond day, after taking the mife, I actually noticed that iba na yung color ng discharge ko, it was slightly brown which indicates blood I guess. Sir John told me that that was a good sign. The third day was the hardest, my boyfriend and I had to check in at a motel for 12 hours. So, when we got there, what I did first of course was the vag miso. I was surprised when I felt cramps just 5-10 minutes after the insertion. The pain increased and I actually thought that something was not right because the instructions said that I might feel intense cramps after swallowing the 2 misoprostol. Before I even got to that part, I already felt something came out of me. We immediately checked and there it was. I can’t even make something out of it,so we just took a picture of everything and sent it to Sir Alex. After about an hour, Sir John and Sir Alex confirmed that I was officially not pregnant anymore and that I was one of the patients who have finished that early with the procedure. I immediately felt relieved but not happy. It wasn’t something to be happy about but yes, we really felt relieved.

Emotional but relieved

What I did wasn’t easy, what all girls like me have done wasn’t easy. You might think that what we did was out of selfishness, call it whatever you want, but just to let everyone know it’s not as easy as some people think.
So, I’d really like to thank project 486 for everything. Sir John and Sir Alex and to the whole team. I could not have accomplised this without knowing that I am in good hands.

To some people, this might not sound good, but I’m glad that people like Sir John and Sir Alex and the whole team exist.

It took me more than 10 days to do this reflection because I really had a hard time writing it. I was trying to make it as emotionless as possible but I can see now that that is unavoidable…
I think of the child I could have had everyday. I cried over him/her many times already. As much as I wanted to keep the baby, there are a lot of things to consider. I guess I’m just a coward but I couldn’t risk it, and I know that what I did was the right thing for me. For us.

I pray everyday that He would give you back to me someday. I love you.