Given the situation, you will never truly be ready to bring a life into this world if it is not part of your plan or if it goes against your current circumstances. I am a nursing student sharing my story of how I went through this journey. Some people may find it strange or even inappropriate to talk about, but I believe sharing it can help raise awareness, especially for those who may face the same situation without enough knowledge.

We all know that engaging in sexual intercourse can lead to pregnancy, and it depends on the people involved whether they will consider it a blessing or a consequence. In my case, it was a consequence I was not ready to face. I was dealing with financial problems while trying to continue my pregnancy, and I was still a graduating student with dreams of finishing my studies as soon as possible. It was not the right time for me to take on such a big responsibility, especially when I had no stable source of income even for my own needs.

When I found out I was pregnant, I knew what options were available, but I had no one I trusted enough to ask for help. Out of desperation, I reached out to a friend’s friend who had previously undergone an abortion. As a nursing student, I understood the risks, side effects, and toll it could take on my body, yet I still proceeded to buy medicines from an unknown online seller using a suspicious Facebook account. I ignored my doubts because I was desperate to end the pregnancy.

When the medicines arrived, I became even more suspicious because some pills were placed in small ziplock bags with no proper labels.

Still, I convinced myself to continue because the seller showed “proof” of previous transactions. I went through the process, and it felt like the longest day of my life. I felt extremely sick and was bleeding heavily, but there was no sign of the pregnancy coming to an end. The procedure had failed.

 

I was devastated. I knew in my heart that I was not ready, and it would be unfair for a child to grow up in a world where their needs could not be met. That’s when my partner’s friend suggested Project 486. Although it required more money than the previous seller, he assured us that their service and medicine were reliable, safe, and effective, just as they had helped him before.

We reached out to Project 486 for help. In my urgent and desperate state, they guided us thoroughly. They explained the entire process, its pros and cons, and even provided credible research sources to help put our minds at ease. I felt safe with Dr. JJ, who responded quickly to all my questions, especially since I still feared another failed procedure.

 

 

He assured me that as long as I followed his instructions, it would not fail. His patience and professionalism were far beyond what I experienced with the first seller—even before I officially started the transaction.

 

When the medicine arrived, I was impressed by how fast it was delivered, just in time for my free days. The instructions were much clearer and more detailed, complete with a timetable that made everything easy to follow. Even though it was midnight until 4 a.m., Dr. JJ stayed in contact with me. As the medicine took effect, I went through a roller coaster of emotions and physical pain, but I remained calm because the doctor had already explained what I would experience.

As time passed, I worried whether it would work. Then suddenly, a gush of fluid came out, and at that moment, I knew the procedure had succeeded. Everything I had hoped for finally happened, and it was all because of Dr. JJ’s guidance and support.

I may never be able to thank him enough for the time, patience, and compassion he gave us. I am forever grateful that my child will not grow up in a world unprepared to support him—where he would question why his life lacked what others had. I want my future child to grow in a stable, loving household, not one filled with struggles I know too well.

Thank you, Project 486, for helping me survive this journey. I hope this becomes an eye-opener for others—that every choice has consequences. For me, I would rather endure the pain myself than let a future child suffer a life I once lived.