Hi everyone! Sa makakabasa ng story ko I hope you’ll understand kung bakit ko nagawa yun. I just want to share how I felt and how guilty I am sa nagawa ko.

 

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I do have a partner, our life is full of dreams even though is not kinda perfect but we always have a plans to everything we are dreaming of. Until one day, na delay yung menstruation ko. For me, its normal naman since there are times na dedelay ako ng 2 or 3 days. Pero that time umabot sya ng one week. I have a guts na something is inside me growing. So without any doubt I bought two pregnancy test and the next morning I woke up early just to test. The first one is positive but hindi pa nag sisink in sa akin so I try the second one and yes positive ulit. Watching those two pregnancy test with two red lines on each of them my emotion went blank. I didn’t feel anything din. I don’t know what to felt that time because I am still reaching my dreams. I came back to my senses after a couple of minutes. I lay on my bed and think how to tell my partner. Nag overthink ako those times and I fell asleep. I woke up and I just said to him na “Positive”. We met and talk. We decided to abort the baby. Masakit sya since we want to have it pero nag aaral pa kami and marami yung naghihintay sa pagiging successful namin and we don’t want to disappoint them.

 

We search online and even asked some of our close friends on what can we do. Some told us na uminom daw ako ng pills while others said na wait ko daw maging 1 month yung delay kasi baka may changes pa. Pero hindi ako mapakali so I searched online and I found Project 486. I read a lot of testimonies and how successful it was. Kung panu sila tinulungan nga project 486.

 

So nag email na kami and the great thing was they replied in an instant. They gave us instructions on what to do and how can we communicate to Doc John. I talked with Doc John and I’m so happy and thankful kasi he answered my questions. Yung mga words niya is nakakatanggal ng guilt. And I really like how helpful Doc John and all the people behind Project 486 since me and my partner don’t have enough money because our school just started and we can’t find a good reason para makahingi sa fam na din. During those time na I felt so down and depressed, Doc John always there to help things work out. He helped us to realize that doing this kind of decision is not like the end of everything. We love our baby but we need to reach our dreams first.

The day came, I started taking the meds na and I’m so happy na Doc John make a sched for me in order to fit on my time. First day of taking med was normal. Second day, I feel some dizziness and cramps but I still went to school. On the third day, Doc John advise me to have rest and to relax so that when the time came I’m ready enough. When I started the procedure na, I was all alone since diko pinapunta partner ko kasi sa bahay ako ng lola ko since walang tao dun. Pero sabi ko I’ll do it alone nalang. I prepared all the needs before I start. With the help of Doc John it went smoothly. During the procedure, you will felt unbearable pain especially the cramps and you will felt dehydrated. Pero you need to focus on the procedure. Doc John was active to answer all my questions and advise me what to do and especially kung kailan pwedeng makainom ng meds and water. Doc John was there from the time I started and the time I done it. He told me na to think or happy thoughts para mas mapadali ang procedure. Nag vivideo call lang kami ng partner ko while doing the procedure. When everything was done, I felt a lot of guilt and sadness but Doc John was there to motivate me.

 

After those things that happened I am thankful enough sa Project 486 especially Doctor John because he also did everything din to have a discount on my meds and to find a sponsor na din. Thankyou project 486 for your help. Your help means a lot to us.

 

I know abortion is a sin. But I always think of my child since the day I knew I was pregnant. To my angel, we your parents asked your forgiveness for what we’ve done. I hope someday if ready na kami and we can face everything na and we can provide anything for you, bumalik ka samin. We promise na aalagaan ka namin and bibigay ang lahat ng love na deserve mo sa mundo.

To Project 486, I hope you can help a lot of women pa na mag uundergo ng ganitong problem as long as they are sure na kaya nila itong gawin. Thank you Doctor John for everything. I hope someday our ways will meet and I can thank you personally.