First of all, I would like to apologize to Sir John and Sir Alex that I
submitted this entry 3 months late. Aside from my heavy workload, I wish to
really put into exact and right words my story and experience with Project
486 for women to be guided because I know how it feels like engaging to the
unknown out of hopelessness.
I am Maria, I live in one of the regions from the Land of Promise. And
here’s my story…
I was delayed and felt the changes of my body over the past weeks of
January 2022, I know my body. If there’s anyone in this world who knows
every detail of it, it is myself. So I acted immediately to be certain.
On the 26th of January, I took my first pregnancy test with my first pee
that morning and to my surprise it came out Positive (+). Yet, I had to
make sure. I took another pregnancy test on the 27th of the same month,
also with my first pee in the morning, it really is Positive (+). I was in
the comfort room and in shock, I thought “Dios ko! Buros ko! Naburos ko!
Pwede ko maburos! [My God! I am pregnant! I can get pregnant! It’s possible
for me to get pregnant!]” because way back 2015, I was diagnosed with
Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome.
Patients who are diagnosed with PCOS could not easily get pregnant.
Basically, I was confident. In my previous long-term relationship, we
attempted several times for more than 3 years until such time we broke-up
and nothing conceived. Then here comes my current relationship of more than
just a year that in less than a month of loading, it formed right there and
then.
Truth be told, I was happy. I was excited. Truly I was. Then it came to me,
I still do not have the security of tenure and so is my partner. We are
still trying to put our lives together. Especially that I am working in a
special program of the government and it does not have the full support
from the higher-ups of this country to maintain its sustainability
throughout the years.
We had no problems in terms of the support that our family could offer,
especially on my partner’s but for mine? Yes, they can somehow support us.
Yet, I could not really put into words how f*cked up my family set-up is
even though I did not grow up in a broken family environment.
It was the dawn of 27th of January that I contemplated deeply down to my
heart and soul, I really wanted this. I dreamed of this but our situation
is not allowing us, we don’t have the confidence that we could give the
child the life that it deserves, the security in life that it deserves and
it may end up in a miserable set-up in this world. I’ve witnessed a lot of
that kind of set-up, not just in televisions but in close friends,
relatives and even members of the family and I have seen how it actually
affected the child, emotionally and its growth. “Di pa namu ni kaya. (Di pa
namin kaya ito)” that’s what I thought.
That’s how I discovered Project 486, I found them on the deepest part of
the internet out of desperation. I don’t know how I did not have any second
thoughts of seeking help from Project 486, maybe because I was desperate.
Really desperate. Without prolonging my anxiousness, Sir Alex (whom I
believed who’s operating the Project 486’s website and their email)
immediately responded to my emails and asked for pictures of my pregnancy
tests in different angles and gave me means to contact Sir John.
29th of January, I was not able to call instantly on the given schedule of
Sir John but I asked to give me another schedule so that I will be able to
have a consultation. Sir John was kind enough to give me another schedule.
30th of January, after the consultation, Sir John already gave me my time
table and the details of the packages I could choose. I immediately made my
transaction on the 1st of February, and it was shipped on the next day. I
received the package by 8th of February in which I needed to move “the
crucial moment” that I proposed to Sir John a week after.
11th of February 12AM is my Day 1, I took Mife #1 as instructed by Sir John
and based on my time table. I did not have the appetite to really eat after
a few hours I took Mife #1. I am only eating to really survive the day.
11th of February 12PM is my Day 2 and I took Mife #2, same with Day 1, I
don’t have the appetite and I do not have the energy either. Good thing it
was already a Friday, I was merely surviving. My partner and I needed to
buy the things needed as required for “the crucial moment.” Then Day 3
came, 8PM 12th of February, the crucial moment. I was instructed to fast
and follow a strict diet. Since I did not have the appetite to eat, it felt
like I was already fasting. I am only eating to really go through with the
day.
The “crucial moment” was really a long night. My partner assisted me to
insert the Miso tabs in my v and maintained the pillow maneuver for 8 long
hours including also the buccal intakes of the Miso tabs in between. Sir
John instructed me to really relax despite the discomforts and keep myself
distracted from the pain, in which I did what I could. I’ve tried
everything to really distract myself, I watched Tiktok, Youtube Videos,
particularly the food ASMRs even though I didn’t have the appetite to eat,
I also watched movies from Netflix, anything to distract me. But the pain
was really overwhelming.
Exactly 4AM onwards of the 13th of February, it was the most relieving day
I felt since 26th of January. “It may be apparent to you but you are now
officially NOT pregnant.” “Full recovery ahead, Maria.” was the most
comforting message I’ve received from Sir John.
To end this entry, I would like to express my sincerest thanks to all the
staff of Project 486, to Sir John and Sir Alex. The assistance you give to
women provides an opportunity for us to choose a path on how we should live
our lives before settling down with a family.
My advice to all women, choose what you think is the best for you,
especially on what comes ahead. It is our body and our life after all.
here’s other stories from Mindanao:
Abortion in Davao amidst an earthquake
Abortion in Davao: Backyard abortionist (manghihilot) and herbals did not work
Hi po. Nagkaroon din ako ng same na problema. I got into a relationship with someone I thought na ako lang ang may -ari. Then it happened po na nabuntis ako at alam ko sa sarili kong wala akong maaasahan sa kanya sa pagpapalaki ng bata. I am just starting my work at hindi pa po ako regular. Having a baby is not an option just yet. So I search through lots of pages and almost got scammed. Project 486 is the only one who never did judged me and undestood my case. From the consultation with Sir John na pinarioritize nya talaga. I am happy and I hope you trust this website as I put my trust on them.
Tulad rin po ng partner ko hindi pa po ako handa na maging ama lalo pa po at kapwa kami ay nag-aaral. Sa lahat ng aming mga pinuntahan na websites at online seller bukod tanging sa project 486 lang po namin nahanap ang solusyon. Maraming salamat po Sir John at Sir Al na syang gumabay sa amin through the whole process. Nawa’y tulad namin ay maniwala kayo na may tutulong sa atin. It may sound selfish as a human being po pero kung hindi po madali ang pagpapalaki ng bata na sana’y naisip muna namin bago nagpatianod sa kapusukan. But thank u po Sir John lalo na sa napakaayos na konsultasyon. Slamat po more power!
salamat tlga kc my taong handang tumulong sa mga ganitong problema..thanks tlga kuya jhon..me jego
You’re in good hands. They are very sincere and helpful. Malaking tulong talaga sila lalo na sa mga taong gusto magkaroon ng choice. Thank you po!
Sa mga taong hindi pa handa sa buhay at nangangailangan ng tulong, you can really trust project486. They are very accommodating and malaking tulong talaga. Salamat sa tulong po.
Hello, isa din ako sa mga taonghindi nag expect na maging buntis sa hindi pa tamang oras, yes kasi Im currently finishing my degree. My partner & I didnt expect this to happen kaya talaga at the moment na nalaman ko na I am pregnant, talagang naghanap kami ng mga taong makakatulong saamin. I was lucky kasi nahanap ko yung website nato, lucky enough na may taong willing to help & makikinig sa problema mo na walang judgement. Im thankful for project 486 kasi tinutulungan nila akong maintindihan lahat at very hands on sa lahat ng aking mga tanong. Thank you project 486.
Project486 also helped me in my dilemma, not once, but twice. And on both occasions, I never felt any form of judgment or hesitation to help from them. On the contrary, they were the most understanding and kind-hearted people I have encountered in my life. I know that I am not yet ready, and that’s why I asked for their help.
To all fellow women out there, do not lose hope. What we are going through right now will test us and may scar us for life. But our decision to choose what is best for us will never be wrong. We have the right to choose. The right to choose a future that we know will bring out the best of us.
Hi. Isa rin po ako sa mga taong hindi nag expect na mabubuntis agad. Alam ko po nagkamali kami pareho pero ayaw ko naman ding lumaki yung bata na labag sa loob ko kase hndi pa po ako ready physically, mentally, emotionally and financially.
Sana po ay matulungan din ako ng project 486 at maging successful ang gagawin ko na safe.
Sa lahat ng mga babae, wag po mawalan ng pag asa. Fighting lang. Salamat po sa tulong Project 486.
Project486, sa totoo pang di parin nagsisink in sa akin na buntis ako at mangyayari sa akin ito sobrang laki depression at anxiety lalopat ako lang nakakaalam. Pero si sir John nag pa comfort sa akin nag palakas ng luob na gawin ko ito, sobrang hirap pero kailangan gawin at parang sila yung nag nakatulong sa akin.
Sobrang laking salamat ko sa Project486 kasi pinaliwanag nila sa akin ng mabuti, hindi ka magdadalawang isip. Sana mging safe ako at maging success lahat.
Hi Sir Alex, isa din ako sa mga taong naghahangad na matulungan nyo. Grabe yung dilemma na nararamdaman ko these past few days. Ilang days na akong hindi makatulog ng maayos and laging kinakabahan dahil sa sitwasyon ko. Before pa ako nag PT alam kong may nag iba sa sarili, iba ung pakiramdam, lagi akong inaantok and pagod, medyo nahihilo din minsan. May duda na ako, so I tried the PT, and boom! It’s positive! My world stops for a while. Parang nagslowmo lahat. Hindi ako makapag isip basta bigla lng akong nanghina. It took me a hours bago ko naprocess lahat. Dun pa lng ako umiyak ng umiyak. I know very well na Hindi pa ako handa! Hindi pa pwedi! Tinimbang ko ung mga pweding mangyari, so I’ve decided to end this pregnancy. I’ve searched everywhere na pweding makatulong sakin. I’m so desperate. Dami kong inopen na link para lng mkahanap ng gamot, pero may takot din ako na baka fake lng ung matanggap, so hindi ako tumigil sa paghahanap, hanggang sa mabasa ko ung isang confession dito sa project486.com. We almost have the same story. Medyo nabuhayan ako ng loob, so hindi na ako nag atubili and nag email ako agad kay Sir Alex praying na mabasa nya ung msg ko and magreply agad. Nung magreply na, sobrang relief para sakin, especially nung nakausap ko na c Doc John, my consultant. And now, sigurado na ako sa gagawin ko and naniniwala akong ang Project486 lang makaktulong sakin. Hoping and praying na maging successful ang lahat.