Hello my name is Marian 34 years old, the situation started on December last year when I noticed I am missing my period. I already have 4 kids and my current partner has 2 kids. We both have them from our previous partners.

Both of us are living from paycheck to paycheck, only enough to provide for what we have now. We never had a problem, we’re also being cautious, doing birth control.

I started noticing signs of pregnancy on January of this year. I have kept this from my partner because I am not sure of his reaction or if my partner deserves to know since he is also the type of a person that’s kinda selfish. He is not good to me all the time and It almost feel like I was only taken for granted because I am the one who is available.

As the weeks pass, my tummy is getting bigger and I can no longer hide this from anyone especially from my partner. Came the time nga nag away mi, wala pa kahibaw akong partner nga buntis ko and when I told him, we both became quiet. We started to question what future we can have knowing our situation, knowing what we can provide and knowing where we are at our lives right now.

Ako gi ingnan akong partner nga feel naku buntis ko, so my partner decided to buy a pregnancy kit for testing. I was hesitant at first, I told him that I don’t want know the result. When my partner showed me the result, we stayed calm and went back discussing the future and the possible outcome now that we confirmed na buntis naku.

The pressure started to pressed on us, overthinking of the situation, overthinking about what people will think from our family, friends and how bad it can be. My partner explained to me 2 scenarios, we will hide it as long as we can and this is going to be the result and asked if we are going to get an abortion. Nag hilak ko, samtang nag huna huna sa impact.

I was 12 – 13 weeks pregnant when we decided to get an abortion. My partner then got into movement, until he stumbled project486. He read most of the recent posts and how trustworthy the project486 was. My partner told me about project486 and I also read some of the articles and how other women experienced things, different situation, status and how careers are affected leading them to choose to consult project486.

My partner then set and made all the preparations from emailing alex until he reached Dr.jj. Following Dr.jj’s suggestions and orders we finally decided to proceed. When we recieved the package and opened it to take a look at the medicine we look back and discuss again if we are really going to this.

We scheduled, and rescheduled as if as we both are still holding a part of us to just bring the pregnancy to term. April 18, the moment we started to do it like there was no going back when I took the first capsule.

After the process I wished me and my partner did it sooner.

After the process I wished me and my partner did it sooner. Until now me and my partner still have flash backs on what we did. We still cried alone, grieve in silence another sitaution that we both only knew. Letting the process became a lesson.