This is my story about how painful it is for us to experience people taking advantage of us, getting our money while leaving us in agony.
I’m a masteral student. Two months from now, I will graduate with my boyfriend, and we both got our visa to fly to Canada for a given job opportunity.
During our reviews, we were stressed and might as well get intimate, reason for me to conceive. I missed my period for 4 days and tried to check if this was just stress or if I was pregnant. Turns out, I’m really pregnant.

 

I do want a baby. Yes, it’s a gift from above, and it’s wonderful that I’m fertile. Because we’ve been doing unprotected sex for 8 years now and nothing happened, and just this moment changed everything.

 

We both have paid and have plans for work, and that might be stressful. Living outside the country with no home and people to help you with pregnancy is a nightmare.
It’s sad that we both decided to abort it. This is so hard for us. But we always choose our own hard. Everything we choose is hard.
So we tried to look for a seller online, desperately looking for pills that can help. We had this one seller on Facebook who showed us successful abortion processes using Mifepristone and Misoprostol. We trusted the seller from all the proofs and everything. It looked convincing.

Also, we were scared since it’s a dummy account and abortion is illegal in our country. But of course, desperation and worry prompted us to say, “Okay, this will work, this will.”
We got the pills. It cost around ₱8,000+ since they said it was hard to abort a gestational sac. We needed more dosage. They used the word “makapit” (even in the medical field no one uses that — it’s all the same and will have the same reaction to the pills lol).

Then we followed the instructions.
THIS IS THE WEIRD PART. Don’t get me wrong, we were so worried and just wanted to finish it. We hadn’t done any research.
So they asked me to insert vaginally the Misoprostol (6 pcs) and elevate my lower body and put some pillows. Then followed by Mifepristone right away, 6 pcs. Then after 30 mins, the seller asked me to take another 6 pcs of Mifepristone. Then after 1 hour, she asked me to insert another 6 pcs of Misoprostol in my vagina.

 

I didn’t move for 8 hours. This was so difficult. I couldn’t pee. I couldn’t drink. I was so, so drained.
Then after the wait, nothing happened. No cramps. No bleeding. Nothing at all, as if I took Vitamin C and stayed healthy.
FAKE PILLS. FAKE PILLS FROM FACEBOOK ONLINE SELLER. THEY DON’T CARE ABOUT YOU AND YOUR WELL-BEING, YOUR UTERINE LINING AND HEALTH. THEY DON’T CARE. THEY WILL KILL YOU MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY.

Please, I beg you all not to buy there. You will risk your life. I got so lucky I’m still alive and nothing happened, the baby just grew.
They will even tell you to have a 1-week preparation. Like lift heavy things, drink alcohol, smoke. Don’t eat your pregnancy cravings. Insert primrose in your vagina. They will ask you to do all the crazy old stuff.

 

Instead of being ready and healthy for the pain during the procedure, they will exhaust you, and you’ll have no energy and resistance to pain during the time you do it. Unbelievable.
Fast forward, I’m crying and hopeless, thinking if even the Misoprostol can affect the growth and cause malfunction to the baby. I can’t continue this pregnancy, even if I changed my mind. It will be much more difficult for the child to live that way.
We were so hopeless.

 

Then 2 weeks later, we’d done our research. It became something we did 24 hours a day — for legitimate pills, timing, and everything. We dug so deep to know the proper and legitimate process.
Then I found Women on Web and Women Help Women. I guessed I was going to order. However, the baby would be so big after 3 to 4 weeks and might be difficult for me.

 

So after deep diving and searching, I saw a testimony on TikTok that she was about to commit suicide but found Project 486, and these people gave her hope.

 

We tried to read as much as we could on their website and cried since we realized we got scammed. I almost risked my own life.
Online sellers will just get your money. THEY DON’T CARE ABOUT YOU. I SWEAR THEY DON’T CARE ABOUT YOU.

 

Then I got a conversation with Dr. JOHN. He sent a lot of things to read, which was very informative and is really concerned about you, not the procedure or pills.

 

He wants you to understand it first and make sure that what you’re doing is safe. It’s something we looked for, science-based, with research and citations from legitimate health care services in the world.

Fast forward, I got the pills — all in a complete blister, safe and with printed labels like what you can buy from a well-known pharmacy. That is the Mifepristone they have, which is legit.
Then no crazy preparation. I ate healthy food and prepared for the pain I would endure during the Day 3 procedure.

Day 1: I had to eat light and fast before I took the first Mife. Everything was okay. I felt feverish, sleepy, it’s like when you drink melatonin. I slept a lot. I was lucky I didn’t feel nauseous and didn’t vomit at all.
Day 2: Same thing, light meals and fasting. Feverish and sleepy. I slept for more than 10 hours, that was the side effect for me. Still no nausea, no vomiting. This time I got a small discharge of brownish like when you’re going to have your period. So the pills are legit, it’s working.
Day 3: I prepared myself for the pain mentally. I suggest you calm yourself, watch funny movies, feel the day is normal. I prepared the stuff I needed. Sir John will give you the list, don’t worry. I over-prepared because I thought it was going to be bloody, messy, full of vomit or whatever.
But no, I was even surprised that everything went smoothly and not as exaggerated as I was thinking.
So I put 2 Miso, inserted in my V.
Then I put 2 Miso again in my buccal (cheek and gums). Well, after an hour, mild cramps, still bearable. I actually fell asleep since pain level was about 2 out of 10.

Now I think, if I can remember, 11:40 PM, the cramps were getting uncomfortable. Then pain was around 9 out of 10. This pain is more than my worst period pain, but not like labor (since I know labor is much worse). So please, as early as 4 to 8 weeks, decide. At this point, the pain is something you can still breathe through.

But I got some stuff to squeeze since I was in pain for like 15 to 20 minutes. After that, it suddenly stopped. I checked my diapers, no bleeding at all.
I got scared since, after what I went through, nothing happened.

Then I had a cough. I suddenly coughed and all the blood was like a river, flowed so hard. I think the reason it didn’t go to the diaper was because of the upright position of my pelvis, it wasn’t coming out, which was great since the Miso was well absorbed.
Now moving forward, the pain was like 3 out of 10. I slept again since it was tiring to feel that pain.
Then I waited 8 hours before I could stand or walk as per the instructions.

Went to the bathroom to pee. Then I saw the fetus at the time I peed. I bled a lot.
Be ready, if you’re scared with blood, it’s part of it. Since I’m not, I carefully got the fetus and washed. I took a picture since I’m sure it’s the right POC.
I prayed and said sorry. I hope soon, once everything is settled and I’m ready, once I get married, I’ll have that baby back. Please come back.
It’s sad and a relief at the same time. And I wish I’d known Project 486 as early as 4, 5, 6 weeks, since it’s more bearable to see clots and tissues than the actual fetus. It’s heartbreaking and it will be with you forever. That memory will be yours forever.
Thank you Project 486 for taking care of us women who seek a choice, a safe place where we can decide for our healthcare.

 

I’m so grateful I searched a lot to find you, and most people don’t know about this. Facebook sellers are more famous since they are all over TikTok and other platforms showing successful abortions, but not in detail.
They don’t care about you. They don’t care if you get hospitalized.
All they care about is for you to abort the fetus and get a testimony for them to present to future women they will scam with their fake pills.
I’M SO ANGRY. THEY DON’T CARE IF YOU DIE BLEEDING.
They will never post unsuccessful abortions, but they have a lot. Some of them got hospitalized for bleeding too much.

Thank you again, Project 486. I’ll be more careful this time.