Hello, everyone! Especially to women like me who needed to make a really tough choice. I’m 23 years old. I’m not really from Cebu, I’m just here for school. I’m in Cebu when I knew about my pregnancy. Honestly, I had 3 failed attempts. I bought meds from accounts I’ve seen on Facebook and from a friend I personally know. With high hopes of terminating my pregnancy as early as possible, I put my faith in these sellers. At first, they were responsive to my queries, made me prepare for the procedure (drink softdrinks and alcoholic drinks, eat junkfoods, insert primrose oil in my vagina every night for 2 weeks), and assured me that it will be successful. Still, despite everything, I failed.

Three times. I became tired, hopeless, and I’m sorry to say this but there was actually a time that I thought of ending everything because considering all the meds I’ve took, I know my baby will not be normal anymore when he comes out of my womb. I can’t take it. I can’t make him live a miserable life just because of my wrongs.

After so many failed attempts, I took an ultrasound and finally discovered that my baby is turning 23 weeks already. I completely thought that my first attempt was a success, turns out it wasn’t and the baby survived. I was ready for a surgical procedure and searched online for a clinic here in Cebu. I know that this is illegal but it was a desperate move on my end and thankfully, I came across a website, Project 486.

When I first read the stories shared on their site, I knew instantly that it’s a legit site. However, I already have doubts on medical abortion because of my failed histories but I was convinced to try when I talked to my consultant, Doc John. He’s very patient with me and my questions and assured me that everything will be fine as long as I follow every step of the procedure. My case wasn’t like any other case. Given the age of the baby (turning 6 months), it was a pretty high risk.

I followed everything Doc John advised me and thankfully, just about 4 hours ago, I successfully did it 😭 I survived. It wasn’t easy but because of the closed monitoring and the supervision of Doc John, I did it. It’s heartbreaking to see my baby, but I’ll never stop praying for his soul and ask God for His forgiveness. It was a tough choice, yes, but this is my strongest act of love for my unborn child. I wasn’t ready to raise a child at this moment, I wasn’t even healed emotionally and I am not in a right place to nurture a child. Thank you, Project 48. Thank you, Doc John. As what as I’ve told you way before we started the procedure, I’ll never forget this and I hope that one day, I can give back to you. If not to you personally, I’ll owe this to the women deprived of the right of choice, of the right to decide for their own bodies, for their own lives.

To you reading this, may you learn a lesson: DO NOT EVER TRUST ABORTION MEDS SELLERS ON FACEBOOK! They will make you believe with their success proofs but in actuality, they will neglect you in the middle of your procedure. Trust me, I’ve been there. They did not just make everything hard for me, they made me think of the most sinful thought I could ever have – to end my own life because it feels like I’m out of options. Choose to entrust your life and your safety in Project 48. I did and I can feel no ounce of regrets, only gratefulness. Salamat, Project 486! May you be able to help more women.