Hi,

Sorry it took a while to send and share my story, I’m still in the process of moving on and healing physically and emotionally.
Please do hide my identity.

It’s been 3 weeks since I had my A, and up until now, I’m still recovering from what happened— from all the pain, guilt, and sadness.

To start, I’m K from Mindanao, of legal age, with a stable job that just enough to cover all my expenses and support to my siblings. Basically, having a child right now is not an option. Hindi pa po pwedi and hindi pa kami handa, financially and emotionally. Like many here, I am also one of those people seeking help from team project486. Even before I took the pregnancy test, I knew something was different about me—feeling constantly tired and easily fatigued, sometimes a a bit dizzy. I had doubts, so I tried the pregnancy test, and boom! It’s positive! My world stopped for a while and everything seemed to go in slow motion. I couldn’t think straight; I suddenly felt weak, numb and cold. It took me hours to process everything and that’s when I started crying uncontrollably. I knew very well I wasn’t ready! Hindi pa pwedi! I weighed the possible outcomes, so I decided to find ways to end the pregnancy.

I searched everywhere for help. I was desperate. I opened numerous links in google just to find answers, but I was also afraid of getting fake drugs, so I didn’t stop searching until I read a confession on project486.com. Of all that I’ve read, we almost had the same story. It gave me hope, so without hesitation, I immediately emailed Sir Alex, hoping he would read my message and reply. When he replied, it was such a relief, especially when I talked to Doc John, my consultant.

The dilemma I felt those days was overwhelming. The sleepless nights and constant anxiety due to my situation was prominent, but still, there was hope that project486 would help me. So, I made a choice, although the dilemma and guilt still lingered inside me. After reading some words of encouragement from this website, I availed the package and paid right away.

As I waited for the package to arrive, my anxiety didn’t diminish. Every day, I was confused. There were so many “what ifs”—what if it’s a scam? What if it doesn’t work? What if it only makes things worse? So, even before the package arrived, I already had a plan B. To ease my mind, I kept reading confessions on project486. I think I’ve read them all just to reassure myself. And then the package came, discreetly and well-packed.

I followed all of Doc John’s instructions and bought all the necessary equipment for the procedure. Day 1 of taking the meds, it was like any other normal day; I could still do my job, and there weren’t many side effects aside from feeling a bit hungry since I was on a light diet.

Day 2 was the same as day 1.

And then day 3 came, the big day, as they say. Day 3 was tough, especially since I was alone. My family was in the house, but they didn’t know what I was going to do. I just locked myself in my room. You know the feeling of being all alone, having no one to talk to and no one to support you during the procedure? Like you’re the only one taking pain medication, calming yourself down, and finding ways to divert your attention, especially during the 8-hour period of pillow maneuver. Ikaw lang mag-isa and everything was just up to you. Feeling ko mas lalong mahirap since wala akong mapagkuhanan ng lakas and support. The 8-hour duration of pillow maneuver was the hardest part. The pain and numbness were bearable for the first 5 hours, but in the remaining hours, the numbness felt unbearable, almost to the point na gusto ko ng umiyak and humagulhol. You have this feeling of wanting to stand up because the longer it goes on, the more you feel the pain, and it feels like time is dragging on forever, yung isang oras nalang at matatapos na ang procedure pero sobrang tagal. My scheduled tapping was supposed to be at 12 midnight, but at 11 pm, I already asked Doc to let me stand up because I couldn’t bear the numbness anymore, and my stomach hurt so much, I needed to go to the bathroom.

I felt like the diaper would leak because I felt a gush of blood coming out of me. So Doc John let me stand up and went to the bathroom, and that’s when the POC came out. After I cleaned myself up, I took a picture of the POC and sent it to Doc John. I waited for his confirmation, and finally, all the fear and burden I felt disappeared when he said, “You are no longer pregnant.” I let out a sigh of relief and then cried. I shed tears intensely at that moment. I felt a mix of emotions. It felt like the weight on my shoulders suddenly lifted, but the guilt I felt at that time was more prominent. I couldn’t stop my tears.

I just held the POC, cried, and asked for forgiveness. I cleaned it up and talked to my unborn 4-week-old baby, apologizing and hoping for his/her understanding. I promised to accept and love him/her the next time he/she is given to me, in God’s perfect time. And I also promised to be more responsible and careful next time.

What I went through was not easy, and because of that, I became stronger and more resilient in my emotions now. Thank you so much, Doc John! I am deeply grateful to you, to Sir Alex, and to the team, for your time, patience, support, and unwavering responsiveness to my questions without any hint of judgment. Thank you for giving us another opportunity to live our lives anew and for being so genuine despite all the scammers around. Please continue helping other women like me who are also in great need of your help. Kudos to the team of project486! And to my baby, I’m so sorry, it’s just that it’s not possible yet, my love. Please forgive me and your papa. I love you, and you will always be in my mind and in my heart. 🤍

And to all women who have gone through this, let’s forgive ourselves too. I know we’re going to be okay again and slowly heal from the all the pain, sadness, and guilt. And everything will turn out just fine. Stay brave!