JM, 26, Med Tech
Marilao, Bulacan, Philippines
Its been 5 days since I did the procedure (medical abortion with the use of imfepristone and misoprostol) and I am slowly having normal life again. Its like I was given another shot in life.
My situation is not really different from other girls sending their stories / experience here. From all the emotions they felt when they knew about their pregnancy up to deciding to abort it, I went on it also. But the final decision of aborting the baby is solely my choice. Yes, I am on the right age to start a family, my boyfriend and I have stable jobs and its time to enter new chapter in life but I don’t think that its enough reason for me to continue the pregnancy. I am now in the peak of my career where a lot of opportunities are coming that will really support my family and I know that my parents would be disappointed in me if they knew that I engaged in premarital sex. I was born in a Catholic family, youngest daughter and my family invested so much in me that I cant afford to break their trust.
When my period was delayed, I was still complacent that I am not pregnant since sometimes my menstruation really comes late. But a week came and still no period so I informed my boyfriend about my situation and he said that he will take full responsibility if ever I am really pregnant. The next day I took a PT and came faint positive, I knew from then on that I cant continue with it so I immediately look for safe ways to end it and I came across this blogger suggesting herbal abortion. I did everything for 8 days and yet only spotting happened to me and she said in her email that I can contact project 486 if I failed the herbal way, and so I did. After all the talks, consultation and payment, I started having the medical abortion right away. At first, I was really scared of doing it alone since my boyfriend Is against it but after I talked to him, he voluntarily accompanied me ‘only to make sure I am safe’ (his exact words). The whole procedure is bearable for me since I have someone that I can trust and takes good care of everything so those who planned to do it, a companion is really a must since the procedure can be mentally and emotionally draining. 4pm on the third day, I received a text from Sir John that I am NOT pregnant anymore. They said that there will be a roller coaster of emotions but I just felt relieved that everything is under control now. I know that it is not what He wants but I also know that He gave everyone the free will to let us decide and choose the path we want to take.
To all the staff of project 486, especially Sir John and Sir Alex, I really want to thank you for all the help and support you willingly extended to me and to all the girls that are under the circumstances like mine. Its really good to know that there are people who are open to this kind and helping out to fulfill their choosing. I hope I can extend my help also to other girls by doing this reflection. Thank you again.